"Food" for thought

While prepping for what is surely going to be an insane trip over this holiday weekend, I took some time to reflect and think about the message shared at our church this past Sunday.
It was the final message in a series addressing what is in our hearts (previous topics include guilt, jealousy, and greed).  Our clever pastor titled the series "It Came From Within".  All fun stuff aside, it has been a tough series to hear (convicted much?) and has triggered some good discussions and changes in our household.  The final installation was on anger.
Ya'll, my heart broken wide open at this one.  I cried through much of it.  It hit right in the heart of so many things...caused some pretty heavy reflection and prayer.
I am saying a lot of prayers of thanksgiving this week, and a lot of prayers for loved ones.  Prayers I can search out and address some of the anger I am holding tight to, prayers I can figure out forgiveness, and that other people can, too.
If you have a chance, it's a great series, a good listen, and a peek at what has been working on our hearts here in Georgia: http://www.savannahcanvas.podbean.com/

Trash Can

I feel like I need to move into one and change my name to Oscar today.
I am being grouchy (at best description) and probably closer to witchy (but with a "b") if I am being honest.
And I feel like I need to be honest.
Most days I can "silver lining" whatever comes up.  For example, Halloween started off kind of rough with Em waking up early and a series of unfortunate circumstances leading to a literal half-gallon of laundry detergent being dumped onto the floor.  But, I just brewed an extra cup of coffee and enjoyed shiny floors and a freshly scented house.
But today I cannot shake off my crabby cloud.  I am just in an ugly mood.
Maybe it is because I have not had a "date" with my husband in months.  Months.  Between crazy weekend schedules, the flu, colds, etc we have just not made it work.  And it sucks.  And, um, truly, I need an evening away from my children.
Maybe it is because the big kiddos have gotten lazy and whiny in regards to chores.  And the fight to get them to do their basic (oh so basic) lists is not worth it.  Or the fight over getting them to eat dinner is tiring...and the list of what they will eat without comment gets shorter and shorter.
Maybe it is because Little Em has been a high maintenance monster with a cold.  Snot everywhere. Inconsolable.  Not sleeping.  Not awesome.
Maybe it is all those things, but dang if I haven't run out of energy to "keep up" with it all.
My mojo got me through Halloween.   Super mom rocked the last minute face-painting, mummy dogs and blood soup dinner, and Trick-or-Treating with our big dudes.
But today.
Nope.
Hoping I wake up tomorrow in a better mood.